Charming.

Today is a weird day. IDK why it turned out like THAT. i have no idea. whatever. shall talk about things today.

Woke up at 6.30am today. Spent more than supposed-to-be-time brushing up and changing, end up 6.50am i was like "forget it, i am not gonna take a bus. god knows when 54 arrives." So i walked to j8 and took a MRT, reaching school with my half-eaten-and-half-uneaten wholemeal bread. reached school at 7.30am for some briefing to all CCA leaders, end up 7.45am then start. waited in the canteen after that for CCAO to begin. CCAO begun, my voice was tired and sore from shouting, ended up going to Judo's booth to learn some basic techniques for slamming ppl down from Ong Yan Lin ;D so funn i tell you. maybe i should have gone to Judo. HAHA. (i think i have great potential. B-) haha) then christine and afiq came to find me, telling me about cheerleading details and all, and if my mummy allows me for cheerleading. told them i will go back and ask.

CCAO ended, RGTT went for lunch. well, actually only 12 ppl went for lunch. haha. ate already and went back to school for Appraisals at 2pm. Aprraisals went well, phew. (: Would like to thank my vice-captains Nat and Slyvia for their ever-important-presence. (: supposed to be rather formal event thing for whole team, end up only 12 present, and everyone smiling and laughing away throught. LOL. had funn though. haha. abit amusing and humorous! ;D went out well, considering that this is the first time RGTT held Appraisals! B-) Love everyone (: Meaningful, enriching, funn. (:

Had training after that. felt quite sian cos i wasnt in my good form. lost here win there. lost here win there. Coach had been getting abit stressed up and bad mood due to upcoming competitions in end Jan. Came to me and asked me, "Thursday and friday no training? Thursday public holiday rest i can understand. but friday?! why no training?! now compeititon nearing and still no training?!" i was like, okayye...... mr ng told me that.... just conveying the message to you..... but nvm..... felt abit yuan1 wang4 wth. not like i declared that public holiday then no training right. so i was like "Will help you check with him..." sian-with-another-n.

Came back from training, really tired. legs worn out. like totally. physically and mentally tired. ohhmydawd. like what-the-hell-to-this-long-day-today. then i ate fruits. then dinner. while dinner-ing, i started to ask my mum about cheerleading, AGAIN. (you will get it why its again, and again.)

"Mummy, can i join cheerleading?"
Straight without hesistation, "No."
"Why? next year its the only year that i can join, you know, mummy."
"Next year you will very very busy, you have no time for it."
I didnt say anything further. decided to find out more details from christine and and persuade her next time. I have been always wanting to join cheerleading since sec 2, or rather actually p6.

siann-with-another-n.

sec 1 i want to go for try-outs for the year next. But my mum disagreed with me because i can't even manage my studies well, scoring way below average from an average RGS girl.

Sec 2 i went for try-outs for the year next, i got in. But my mum disagreed because my studies had-just-been-stablised-in-a-sense-of-improving.

This year, Sec 3, i went again for try-outs for next year, i got in. But my mum still disagree because next year i will be very busy with commitments -- trainings, modern jazz, TC, Captain etc.

1. This year and next year is gonna be no big difference. i have modern jazz this year, so does next year. i have TC this year, so does next year. i have leadership postition this year, so does next year. whats the very BIG difference? yet, i still can improve this year during mid-years to end-of-years.
2. Cheerleading prac is only once per week, duration of 4 hours. Only when nearing sprts festival, pracs will intensify. and its only thorughout HALF A YEAR.
3. Cheerleading prac ends right after sports fest, which is july. meaning, only spend half a year.
4. Christine had allowed me to not go for every single prac sessions cos i am fast in catching up steps. And only when they need me, they will ask me to go over.
5. i have always wanted cheerleading. i have the passion for it. Its like another form of dance, which helps me to relax esp whenever i am stressed out.
6. Next year sec 4 is my only last year i can have the chance to join. talk about JC? fat hope for me.

I'm torn apart. I'm annoyed. Annoyed by people doubting me whether i can cope if i join cheerleading. Cant y'all give me the support instead? Cant y'all understand my 6 reasons above? Cant y'all have some confidence in me?

A weird day. with mixed emotions and feelings. definitely is.