Compromised.

Saturday. Yesterday was my first day of EYAs. English killed everyone (well, almost.) My chinese dictionary almost murdered me. Shall not elaborate further on that.

Monday is physics. Finished my no-confidence-revision for all the topics. Screwed up my Data Analysis. Thanks i failed, although i did very well for my SPA.

Tuesday is Higher Chinese compre and Geog. Geog. Dont really have much confidence in aiming 4.0 anymore after screwing up my PT. its down the drain. unless i get full marks for EYA, which you think its possible? The sky will drop. My hopes for geog are gone. well, they flew away like some piece of leaf.

Wednesday is Bio. Everything tested from term 1. not used to it. Now have to stuff all the nonsense in my brain. Homeostasis, Respiration, Photosynthesis, Ecology, Evolution, Man's Impact on Environment. all the best to Chloe.

Thursday is MATHS and CHEM. 2 "EXTREMELY NICE" subjects. I think my calculator will break down after these two papers. Poor calculator.

Friday Philo. Dont intend to study much on that. Fallacy and fallacy and fallacy.

Halfway to post-EYAs. Honestly, i dont have stamina for mugging. imagine staying at home, letting your butt to catch fire from sitting for more than 4 hours and all. Feel very siann of everything. Sighs. Nothing goes into my brain even if i stare at my Bio journal for 10 minutes. Nothing is processing through even if i stare at the never-ending case studies for geog. Nothing is working except my fingers typing this goddamn post. gahhh.

i am just worried that of all these hard work i have been putting in for EYAs, will i achieve what i want at the end? What if i dont get what i wanted? What if my efforts are all wasted? Is it worth it to study so hard, so hard for just one week of EYAs, wasting so many papers to do revision, killing so many trees, wasting my time i have compromised for my sleep?

I have gave up alot of things for my studies. Of all that i have compromised, is it worth it?

If only we have 30 hours a day. Just that 5 hours, its enough for me. I'll be satisfied.